agonize

kiduttaa

olla kuolemantuskassa, kärsiä kauheita tuskia puhekieltä To writhe with agony; to suffer violent anguish.
(w):

To smart and agonize at every pore.

So I took a last stare round, agonizing to see if there was any way of escape; but the stone walls and roof were solid enough to crush me, and the stack of casks too closely packed to hide more than a rat.